JOURNAL ENTRY

I just sat down to update my journal (something else I’ve been neglecting for the past week or so) and all of a sudden realised that my head’s all over the place. There’s been a lot of stuff for me to get my head round over the few weeks. Firstly, there’s been getting used to the different culture. Then I’ve been learning about the politics of Palestine whilst at the same time always trying to reach my own opinion about things. Then I'm hearing stories about suffering. Then I’m teaching English, something I’ve never done before. And I’m going to be unemployed when I get back home, so need to think about what I want to do next. And then, on top of all of this, I’m trying to make sure that I contribute as much as I can while I’m here, and learn as much as possible.

Now, none of this is actually bad and it should be a positive thing for me to work through all of the above. I’ve just all of a sudden got very emotional about it all.

And I’m coming to the realisation that I don’t think I’ve ever felt more proud of myself than I do at this particular moment in time.

So, my last post was a humorous (or at least it was supposed to be) account of the differences between living in Nablus and being back home, and then I post something a lot more deep and personal. Maybe that sums me up quite well.